I know, even a little bit of a loss is still a loss. I should be happy the scale is moving in my favor. But I’m not going to lie, this week’s loss was a bit of a disappointment. Trust me, this morning, at the end of this week in particular, I could have used the external validation.
I hit every one of my workouts. I watched all of my calories. It was however one of the more stressful weeks I’ve had in a long time. I sat in not one, but two, pointless meetings and had conversations with people who wanted something that was not only not realistic, but pretty much impossible given their deadline and resources. And stupidly I felt badly for not being able to do the impossible and give them what they wanted.
Stupid, I know. But there it is.
And I long ago figured out that no matter what I do when I’m stressed, no matter how hard I hit the gym, I never lose weight. Seriously I could eat nothing, absolutely nothing, for a week and stress will pull fat molecules from other people in order to have me gain weight. At least that is my admittedly non scientific explanation. My mom gets stressed and eats her body weight in pasta (specifically linguine with clam sauce) and drops weight like a duck sheds water. Clearly my body just soaks the free floating fat cells in like a sponge.
Admittedly, she is not stressed right now, but I’m sure someone else is and they are releasing free floating fat molecules into the air for my stressed out self to absorb.
Okay, that’s enough wallowing. I just had to get it out.
The truth is that despite my efforts this week I only lost 0.2 lbs because I was stressed. The last project I am contracted to do with this company went out yesterday afternoon and I am sending out the last e-mail to them today. Then I will complain for a little while, remind myself that I am finished with everything they hired me to do and that I now never need to deal with them again and go on a walk. The stress will be over. It will be a three day weekend and next week I can get back to my regularly scheduled program.
Next week I have a skin cream review to post, a review of three Soap and Glory cleansers and my impressions of a Colourpop palette to share. My normal schedule will resume and hopefully next week I will lose more then 0.2 lbs.
I know, not the most inspiring Friday post, but this is an honest journey. Not every day is filled with roses. But I do keep chugging on because over all the good times outweigh the bad. I hope everyone reading this can say the same.
Starting weight: 246 lbs
Last Week’s Weight: 211.6 lbs
This week’s weight: 211.4 lbs
This week’s weight loss: 0.2 lbs
Total weight loss to date: 34.6 lbs
Left to lose (apx.): 88.4 lbs
Well one good thing is that I am still edging towards a forty pound loss which means it is time to start thinking about my next ten pound reward. Any suggestions?