It finally arrived. The dreadful date. The post Thanksgiving Weigh in. Sigh. I’ll admit, I was a bit more nervous getting on the scale this morning than I usually am. I spent five days with people who seemed intent on fattening my up for the upcoming Christmas feast.
The fun part was that they complemented my weight loss while they were doing it.
All in all though it was a good trip. The Wednesday morning before I left I weighed myself and came up with 206.6 lbs. As I mentioned in my Tip of the Week, I stayed away from the scale upon my return in an effort to distance myself from the epic food consumption and complete lack of exercise. Unless talking counts and an exercise. I did a lot of talking and listening. Not so much walking.
I have to say the distance helped. While I was nervous getting on the scale I didn’t feel rotten. I spent the week getting back into the groove of my everyday life and I ate properly. I didn’t get on the scale after overindulging yesterday.so while I wasn’t thrilled with the numbers the scale flashed at me, I didn’t say and think horrible things to and about myself because I didn’t feel bad.
And seriously no one should ever say the sorts of things to anyone, let alone themselves, the sorts of things I have said to myself in the past when I have gained. seriously, I would be horrified if I heard anyone else say those things to anyone. So I am trying never to insult myself like that either. I don’t let other people bully me, I don’t know why I let myself do it. It’s something I’m working on. I’m trying not to call myself names I wouldn’t let other people get away with saying.
It is disturbingly harder than it sounds.
I don’t mind being hard on myself as it helps push me to do better and I really need to not let myself get away with excuses (my excuses are part of why I have the excess weight to begin with). But I am trying not to be mean to myself. I know lots of people are overly critical of themselves as well and I have a lot of friends who struggle with this as well. I think the key is finding that balance between not excepting excuses and not being mean to yourself.
It is a hard line to walk, but it actually gets easier the more you practice it.
If you are in the same boat I hope you practice as well, because you deserve better.
(And yes I may have had a rather odd conversation with a younger cousin about bullying when I went home. Sorry if it spilled over. It still applies, but that’s where it comes from. In case you are wondering.)
Enough of this thing called emotion, to the Stats:
Starting Weight: 256 lbs
Last weigh in: 206.6 lbs
This week’s weigh in: 209.8 lbs
Change in weight: +3.2 lbs
Weight lost thus far: 36.2 lbs
Weight left to lose (apx.): 86.8 lbs
A 3.2 gain isn’t all that much in the grand scheme of things, especially as it was the result of a once a year feast. I know the numbers will start going down again and I am okay with that.
Oh and as an addition, I will be adding a new segment to this blog. This afternoon I will be adding the first Friday Face Mask post. I figure since I love rewarding myself on Fridays with a nice face mask it might be fun to share. Plus it is an excuse to take cheesy photos of myself with a face covered in goop. The first of that segment will be out later this afternoon, after I use the face mask. so stay tuned.