Good morning my darlings. I have to say I feel fabulous today. This morning I woke up and while the skin on my calfs felt dry and tight there was only one sore spot on my ankle. A heavy dose of body lotion (Sol de Janeiro – the original, if you are interested) and the dry skin was no longer as dry or as tight. It may help tighten up my stretch marks but my sun dried skin soaked it up and begged for more. Which I gave it. At this point I am all for spoiling my much abused legs like an overly indulgent grandparent coming to town after a two year absence. Nothing is too good for my babies… err legs.
I really think a walk might be in my near future. I’m waiting until monday because of that one last sore spot though. I will not risk the delay of the return to semi-normality by rushing and injuring. But soon. Sooooon. This week as I was feeling better but still unable to walk I reverted to some of my older exercises to burn off some of my energy. They were the ones I did when I knew my knees would get me to the floor but didn’t trust them to get me back up off the floor later.
Yup, I used the bed as my flat surface.
Covered with a double layer of towel to protect the coverlet, I did crunches and sit ups. I even managed some leg lifts. My legs were fine as long as I didn’t put pressure on them or attempt to bend the knees and ankles too much.
And I have to say, while I hoped this would just help me burn off some of my immobility angst, I was pleasantly surprised when I got on the scale this morning. I have to say that was the cherry on top of my almost no pain waking. Because today’s number was smaller.
Lets just add the stats here. (Can you tell I’m a bit excited?)
Starting weight: 246 lbs
Last Week’s Weight: 208.2 lbs
This week’s weight: 207.0 lbs
Lost this week: 1.2 lbs
Lost thus far: 39 lbs
Left to lose (apx.) 84 lbs
For those who didn’t catch one of the earlier posts, my final weight is more or less a sliding scale. As I haven’t been a healthy weight in a really long time, I was uncertain what exactly to shoot for. I am a 5′ 4″ woman with rather delicate bones. My doctor gave me a range of between 120 – 130 as my healthy range, but because I needed a concrete number to sort of shoot for I picked 123.
Oddly I didn’t choose it because it was on the lower end of the scale or because I have some fascination with it, but because it amused me to type 123 into the calculator. I decided that tiny amusement was better than obsessing over a round number. Plus, if I kept the thought that this number was chosen only for amusement in my head, then I would have less fixation while still having a number for math. My plan is to see what weight actually looks healthy on me once I get closer to the range. As it feels like I’ve been battling the low 200s forever at this point I have plenty of time to work that final detail out.
Truthfully the numbers on the scale are more of a means to keep me focused and accountable rather than an end all goal. Health is the end all goal.
But today I am still happy the numbers are going down. Admittedly I think the grocery store visit this week helped with that. While veggies have still been a part of my daily diet, they have either been frozen, canned or the more substantial able to survive a few weeks after purchase things (like butternut squash). I was able to put open backed slides on my feet this week and we did a quick grocery run (masked of course). Fresh salad has never looked so beautiful. And with them in the house it was hard to be attracted to anything else.
That is definitely not something I would have said this time last year. while the current circumstances have a lot to do with it, I have to say I feel that I have actually changed in the year I have been actively working on my body. I’m pretty sure the me from last year would have stocked the freezer with frozen burritos and made certain to grab a pack of oreos on my run to the store. While I still like both, neither was what I craved.
I have to admit, I kind of like knowing that about myself.
So if this morning is any indication, I am primed for a good day. I hope you are ready to face the same. I will return later for the Friday Face Mask and hopefully settle into my 20 minute break with a sigh of satisfaction from a morning well spent rather than seeking solitude like a spa seeking missile. It would make a nice change of pace. See you then.