Weekly Weight: 213.8 lbs

The Scale: October 15th, 2021

Good morning my darlings and welcome to another weekly weigh in. again, slowly but surely I am nibbling away at the weight. It isn’t a massive weight loss I grant you and it isn’t a quick loss either. But you know, I’m kind of happy with that.

I know a part of me wants to drink a magic potion and wake up the next morning at my target healthy weight, or at least somewhere in that range as I don’t actually have a set number. But it just doesn’t work that way. Kind of a bummer and totally not what celeb photos make you think, but it is the reality.

And honestly, if I did have a massive dramatic weight loss I think I would go to my doctor’s office and camp out on his steps until they did tests on everyone of my internal organs. Because that is not right.

the way I figure it, it took me a while to put on all of this extra weigh, so it is going to take me a while to take it off again. As long as I keep working towards a healthier me, I am happy with it.

You may wonder why I feel the need to say that as after all I did have a loss this week and not a gain. I ran into a couple of people I hadn’t seen in a while. I should point out that they aren’t close friends. I know them, but we don’t really hang out, even before the mess that was 2020 occurred. They were just people I know well enough to be polite to in public. After the greetings and how have you beens we split up and a couple of women split off to go in a separate direction and they made a snide comment weight.

Now I should point out it might not have been directed at me. While I have been on an up and down rollercoaster, a couple of the people I was with added a bit more weight in the past year as normal systems changed. But meant for me or not it really got me quite angry. We were in a library so yelling after them was ill advised but I thought about it. Then the librarian looked at me and I let it go.

While I am mentally at a point where those kind of comments just anger me rather than tear me down, the comment really affected one of the other women. This led to a bit of a longer conversation outside than I planned, but it was well worth it.

So I just wanted to take a moment and remind all of you out there that your weight, gain, loss, neither or both are part of your health. And unless you share it with someone, then it is no one else’s business. If you are losing weight for yourself then it is your journey to go on. Take people with you if you want. In a sense these posts are me taking you all along with me and sharing some of the details i pick up that might help you out along your own journey. But don’t let another persons opinions about your path tear you down.

And conversely if you see someone who is working to lose weight, unless invited in to talk to them leave them alone. I’ve had people offer me comments I know that they thought were uplifting and positive but they aren’t always taken the way you intend them.

For example I was on a walk once towards the very beginning of my weight loss plan. I hadn’t lost anything and was still actually trying to convince my bod that the hill on the walking trail wouldn’t actually kill me. For the first month or so I had visions of a Jack and Jill sort of scenario with that hill. Minus Jack of course. However on the first day I managed to make it up to the top of the hill without feeling like I needed to just utterly collapse a sweet old woman on a bicycle stopped to talk to me.

“I just love to see obese people exercising, well done.”

First of all I don’t care how medically accurate the word obese is, you don’t say it to a total stranger. It is the sort of word that gets stuck in a persons head and circles around for far too long. Second what do you say to that?

“I love seeing old ladies on bicycles so i know their knees still work?”

Of course not. Besides I was too stunned to actually reply before she was off on her bike and waving merrily at me as she left. And I know she felt good about offering the comment. I know she thought she was being encouraging. That she did a good thing.

She didn’t.

She made me cry.

When I was feeling good about getting up the hill.

So seriously, unless invited to comment, don’t. You’d think that would just be good manners, but apparently it isn’t. Juet recognize that it isn’t any of your business and let it go. And if you are the recipient of such comments, know that their comments, good of ill, have more to say about the person making them than they do about you.

Okay that was a bit more of a rant than I planned. Essentially it can be summed up as I am happy with my current slow and steady pace. I know, a lont way to go for a simple statement. It’s just that sort of morning.

The Stats:

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 214.6 lbs

This week’s Weight: 213.8 lbs

Lost this week: 0.8 lbs

Lost thus far: 32.2 lbs

So there we have it my darlings. I am happy to be making slow and steady progress and annoyed by insensitive comments of others. the annoyance will fade as it is only a minor irritation. I know I am doing what is right for my body and I am on a path to a healthier me. And in the end, that is what really matters.


The Daily: October 14th, 2021

Oh my darlings, today has been somewhat erratic. I tried for a walk, but by the time I got my shoes laced, the phone was ringing. It hasn’t really stopped. In addition a call I thought was a regular conference call turned out to be a video one so I ended up doing a five minute makeup look.

Actually I think it might have taken me three. But it worked out. Tonight’s dinner is a baked potato with broccoli, bacon bits and a scant scattering of cheddar over the top. The cheese I have to measure because it is so easy to over shoot the calories where cheddar cheese is involved. I understand why it is so caloric, but it always knocks me back a step to see it when I start grating it. While most foods I have repeated enough and measured enough that I can generally eyeball them, the cheddar is one thing I always have to measure. Otherwise I will talk myself into believing that a half a cup looks just like it could be 2 tablespoons.

Ah cheese, my eternal weakness.

Today’s Look:

Primer: Urban Decay Optical Illusion Primer

Foundation: Revolution Fast Base Foundation Stick

Bronzer: Ace Beaute Bronzed in Paradise Palette

Blush: bareminerals Bounce and Blur Blush

Highlighter: Illamasqua beyond Powder in OMG

Powder: Becca Pink Haze

Eyes: Ace Beaute Bronzed in Paradise Palette

Mascara: Roen Cake Lash Mascara

Lips: Elf Sheer Stick in Black Cherry

Okay the Urban Decay Primer and Becca Pink Haze Powder are both discontinued and I am trying to use them up. I love them both and wish they could be repurchased, but they can’t. So I will use them up and let them go.

The Roen Mascara is one I am currently testing out. I used it for the first time yesterday and liked it. Today I am even more impressed. It is not a dramatic mascara. There isn’t a lot of lengthening or volumizing. It does feel light on the lashes and won’t weigh them down during the work day and is actually a pretty good workday mascara. If going out, I would add a more dramatic mascara on top of it (I don’t do fake lashes, trust me, its for everyone’s benefit). However the mascara isn’t clumping or flaking and it is light enough that i can forget I am wearing it. And my lashes still look pretty good.

I didn’t choose an eyeshadow palette today because I was moving at speed. Instead I used the bronzer palette as, well bronzer, and then I took the darkest shade, which is actually a nice reddish brown and just swiped a bit across my eyelids. It is a lovely color and probably the only reason i was able to get my face on in time for the call.

Over all this look was designed to make me look less like i rolled out of bed and was working in my pajamas. I think I managed to clear that bar. Okay, it wasn’t a high bar, but I think I successfully cleared it. I also think mornings like this are what stick foundations were really designed for. I love traveling with the stick foundations but when you are in a rush they make life so much easier. The Revolution Fast base is a creamy formula that matches my skin tone so it was especially easy to grab and go.

Stripes across the face and then a quick blend with my 999Master Blender from Bdellium Tools and boom, done. I do love that foundation brush. I keep meaning to reach for a different foundation brush so that by the end of the week it isn’t so gunky (I clean my brushes on Saturday) but somehow I never do. Each Saturday I remind myself I do have other foundation brushes to use, but still I don’t reach for them. I actually have one I keep meaning to test out, but keep forgetting. I might actually have to hide my Masterblender. Just for a bit.

I also think I need to give it a deep clean. Maybe I’ll give it a deep clean tonight so that it will still be damp tomorrow and I’ll have to reach for a different foundation brush. Ah self trickery, sometimes quite useful.

At the moment the Master blender is on sale. Usually it is $16 but at the moment it is only $11.20. As it is the best foundation brush I have, I highly recommend it if you’re looking for a new foundation brush.

And with that I will leave you and get back to work. My plan for the day got a little off kilter but I think I have time enough to rein it in and hit Friday morning on schedule. As we have company coming this weekend, Friday also includes a bit of cleaning, so knowing it will be added makes that schedule just a little bit more important. After all we can’t let guests see toothpaste spatter in the sinks can we? Also I spilled some setting powder a few days ago so it looks like my bathroom is quite dusty. (I thought the lid was on, but it wasn’t actually screwed on just sitting on top.) And no one likes a dusty bathroom. There are worse things of course, but I’ll take down the problems I have. And for now, my problems are in the form of paperwork. So back to it for me and bathroom deep clean (company edit) tomorrow. Enjoy the rest of your afternoon.

The Daily: October 13th, 2021

Oh my darlings the sun is shining, my nose is not sniffilly and while it is still above normal temps for this time of year, the heat and humidity aren’t bad. All this means that i took a really long walk this morning. I did come back all sweaty but after a brief cool down I jumped in the shower and actually used up the last of my Annmarie Skincare shampoo and conditioner set. I was actually quite impressed with it. I’ll be posting my full review next week, but while I did test the shampoo with the hair dryer, for the most part I can let my hair air dry and just run a brush through it. And the less I have to do with my hair on a daily basis, the healthier my hair stays.

Which also meant that i got to keep my hair up in a towel while I put on my makeup today. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but I have bangs and when I pull them back to put on my makeup they tend to take a lot of fixing after. this way the hair was already back and then once the products were applied, I could just let the hair down. Much less wonky. Today was interesting for me, product wise. Hold on, let me list the products first, then we’ll dive in.

Today’s Look:

Hair still damp from the shower

Primer: Urban Decay Optical Illusion Primer

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Foundation: Ciate London Extraordinary foundation

  • currently they have a sale on where you can get 3 Glitter Flip Lippies for $25 (usually they are $19 each)

Bronzer: Too Faced Cocoa Contour Palette (also used for powder)

Blush: bareMinerals Bounce and Blur Blush

Highlighter: Illamasqua Beyond Powder in OMG

  • currently you get a free Beyond Powder when you spend $60

Eyeshadow: Tuscany Palette by Nomad

Mascara: Roen Cake Lash in Black

Lips: Buxom Full Force Lip Plumping Lipstick in Fly Girl with YSL lipstick layered over it

Setting Spray: Benefit Cosmetics Porefessional Supper Setter Setting Spray

Okay for the usual suspects, I am using up the primer as it has been discontinued. Still love it so this is like the long goodbye. The bareMinerals Bounce and Blur Blush may be my absolute favorite blush. I can dip in with a finger, apply it and blend to the color I want. I do absolutely love the formula. And this color works for my skin tone. Its Mauve Sunrise if you are wondering. I also really love the Benefit setting spray. the mist is fine and light, the smell, is well the same scent as their primer, and it works well. I do have to keep it standing upright as when it is put on it’s side it tends to leak. Otherwise it is super fab.

I like the shadow, but I have to say i am super pleased by the fewer fine lines showing around my eyes. currently using Verso Super Eye serum FYI

Now, to play time. we are in the time of year where my skin tone is shifting. (my skins needs are shifting as well, but that is something to discuss elsewhere.) Even if the heat hadn’t faded, the rain has been keeping me inside more. My tan is fading. Some foundations are reaching the, so sorry, see you next year phase, others I think I might be able to use longer. A lot of the summer I lean into BB creams and tinted moisturizers as they work well in the summer when i just want something light. The Ciate London Foundation is really a good one for me in the summer, partially because it feels as light as a BB cream, but still works as a medium coverage foundation.

Medium is kind of my sweet spot with foundations. I really like the formula and not only is the color good but the tones suit my undertones really well. As it blends really well, I want to see how long I can wear it before my skin lightens enough that I think it is too dark a product. This is one of the few foundations where I will actually buy it in a summer and winter shade as I really like it so I want to find out when I need to do the switch so I can figure out what shade I need to get me through the paler shades of me. So this foundation will be bouncing in and out of rotation as i try to figure that out. For now it seems to still be fine. and I like wearing it.

The Cocoa Contour palette I reached for also partially because I find palettes to be much better options during the fading tan and beginning tan phases of the year. I can adjust the bronze to suit my skin much more easily. Today I went light on the darkest shade, but think I might soon have to switch. Part of the reason I pulled this palette up though is that it has a row of non-shimmer highlights and I noticed the light medium is somewhat similar to my Becca Pink Haze setting powder. I was hoping that it might be a good option. So I tried it. It worked well-ish but not as good as the Pink Haze. So the search continues for a replacement. I think at least one of my other highlighter palettes has a pink powder so I might try that as well.

I also like using this palette as the Too Faced Packaging feels lux and smells like candy. It is just a fun palette to use.

My eyeshadow palette I chose because I am still on the fence about it. It barely squeaked through my last declutter as I generally only reach for the light pink shade of La Bella Vita. It performs well. The darker brown of Passaggiata isn’t quite so fabulous. It tends to be a bit patch. Once you work with it, the combo of the two can give you a rather soft look, which i really liked. Honestly I need to play around with this palette more to see if i do in fact like it enough to keep it long term. Usually I really like Nomad shadows. I adore the Berlin Underground palette. this one I need to think about.

This was my first run with the Roen Mascara. Its fine. It is black mascara and thus far it hasn’t flaked or faded. It lengthens a little but not a lot and doesn’t really thicken. I like it a lot better than the Florence by Mills, because it doesn’t require as much work to apply (Florence needed a couple of applications) since it only needs one application, but it isn’t a spectacular lash moment. It is a good office mascara. At least that is how it seems with this first use. It is in rotation and we will see how it performs over time. At the moment it isn’t bad.

I layered the lips. I really like the Buxom plumping lipstick. it plumps and lasts a long time. The shade does make my lips disappear into my face though as it is similar to my skin tone. So I dotted the YSL over it. The shade is slightly on the transparent side and a little too pink for me to enjoy on it’s own. The neutral tames the tan and locks the color into place longer than the YSL would last on it’s own. Plus the YSL feels a little bit waxy to me.

I am a big fan of the Buxom lipstick and I tend to use this one as a base for a lot of other colors that need a slight tweak to them. I could blame subscription boxes for my sometimes not so great color selection but the truth is I am the queen of picking the wrong lipstick when I shop. Somehow between the store and home the colors never turn out quite how I thought they would. I have a lot of almost right lip products. Its why the Buxom is such a trouper even though the shade on its own makes my lips disappear. It blends well with every product I’ve tried it with and it keeps my wrong lipstick purchases from being a waste.

So today had a lot of play in it as I worked with the products. Over all i don’t think the look came out too badly. But now it is back to work for me. Wednesday always makes me feel like I am running behind. So it is best to get back to it. I hope your Wednesday is fabulous and that you reach the end of the day in triumph and can coast all the way to the weekend.

The Daily: October 12th, 2021

Good afternoon my darlings. Today is a hazy but not too bad day. Humidity is high but temps are low. Oddly enough I think the humidity helped my walks today. I know that sounds strange but after the park floods and then dries out there is an abundance of mold and what not in the air and dried to dust on the walking path itself. With each step the dried stuff is crunched under foot and released into the air. I think that was what made yesterday such a puffy eyed misery. Today there is actually enough humidity in the air to kind of weigh down the dust.

A quick rain that doesn’t cause flooding will wash it all away, but for now the humidity is helping. I never really thought humidity would be my friend. It makes me feel a little guilty for all my summer time complaints.

Only a little bit though.

I did manage to get my walk in today without sneezing and sniffling my way through it, which was a nice bonus. I had one eye looking at the sky though as those clouds look like they want to rain, despite the weatherman’s assurances that we have a couple of non-rainy days on the way.

they’ve lied before.

Except for the walk though, I am keeping pretty close to the desk today. I have my regular work, but there is also a lot of work that needs to get done before the new year. I know that sounds strange to say, but I have a kind of big expansion planned for my writing site, Ten ’til Midnight, in January so I’m trying to get all of my ducks in a row for that before the craziness of the holiday’s descend. I’m sure there will be more about that as we get closer as the prep work is taking up more of my mental space.

Have you ever noticed that about big projects? Once they are actually in motion it is much more manageable than in the few months before. I know part of that is working out all of the logistics so that the actual implementation can roll out smoothly and part of the crazy is planning for possible issues that might or might not arise, but even though it is a lot of work once it gets started, I always breathe a heavy sigh of relieve after the launch.

But there are a host of things to get through before that particular relief can be felt. For now it is a lot of planning and organization.

Today’s look:

Primer: Urban Decay Optical Illusion Primer

Foundation: Wet ‘n Wild Tinted Hydrator

Bronzer: Trestique Bronzing Stick

Blush: Billion Dollar Beauty Blush in Amour

Highlighter: Billion Dollar Beauty in Mystic

Brows: Billion Dollar Brows Pomade in Taupe

Eyes: Billion Dollar Beauty Eyeshadows

Lips: bareMinerals Mineralist lip gloss in Sincerity

Mascara: Pretty Vulgar The Feathers

The primer, as you know is one I am trying to use up because it is discontinued. I love it, but I need to clear it out. while I am sure I will end up trading it out, I do want to concentrate on using it up so it will be hanging around for a bit.

The wet ‘n Wild Tinted hydrator is a product I love. The tube is shorter than most of my other products so it often gets over looked, but it is super comfortable to wear and it blends in well. i always start to apply it and think wow this is way too light, then it just blends beautifully. I also love the fact that both hyaluronic acid and squalane are mixed into the formula. I don’t know the concentration or if it actually does anything within the formula but my skin really likes both of these things when I use them in skincare so I am not adverse to potentially having them here. Plus this formula just feels really good to wear.

I love the trestique bronzer and will us it until it is gone and then repurchase the now refillable version. As this is my third Trestique Bronzing stick I have no doubts that it will be a refillable product that I will in fact refill. The bareMinerals lippie and the Pretty Vulgar mascara are also favorites. They are fabulous and will be used until finished and then repurchased.

Pretty much everything else came from my Billion Dollar Beauty Box today. You can pick up these set boxes from Billion Dollar Beauty or simply build your own. They sent one of them to me and i liked it enough that I ended up adding a couple of eyeshadows to it. The blush is a light buildable formula that works really well, especially if you are going with a tinted moisturizer or a BB cream. It is easy to just cause a light bush or build to something more intense. The highlighter too can go from subtle to stunning very easily. I think I find it more impressive today than usual because I have been using the Beauty Bakerie Palette as I test it out. That one tends to loose its color and just leave trails of glitter behind. This one from Billion dollar Beauty, retains its sheen no matter how much you sheer it out and there is no glitter trail.

And while I don’t care for their powdered brow product, their brow pomade is rapidly becoming my go to product for brows.

Over all it was a quick and easy look that works well for me. I know it is still a pretty basic office look, but lets fact it, I spend a lot of time in an office environment. I appreciate the spectacular looks and occasionally try to replicate them, but but good everyday work looks are kind of my zone.

I’m okay with that.

But for now it is back to work for me. I have to admit, even with the increased work load, I am rather enjoying the planning. It has actually brought several of my office organizational issues to light though so I may have to do a desk renovation or remodel before the new year hits. Sometimes an ounce of planning and organization can stave off major catastrophes. At least that’s my plan.

Weekly Weight: 214.6 lbs

The Scale: October 8th, 2021

Good morning my darlings and welcome to another weekly weigh in. This week, I have lost a little. I am always happy when the numbers go down. This week, I just felt really good. I am extra glad that on a week where I felt good the numbers went down, but really, I just enjoyed feeling good this week.

There were a few days where I had to play catch up due to spending large chunks of last week in the all too brief beauty of the ideal early autumn weather. I’m sure we’ll get a few more days of that, but having a string of them in a row was just too tempting to ignore.

So I spent the early part of the week making up for it. Once back on track, I got a lot done and things just sort of felt like they were clicking along. It just felt like a good week all around. Even wehen I mistimed the weather and ended up drenched and squelching my way back home.

For the record, I really hate the feel of soggy socks on my feet. Like socks so wet that you can feel the grain of every fiber in your socks pressing against your skin kind of wet. Not my favorite thing. Luckily I could peel them off and drop them straight into the washing machine once I made it through the door. So it was short term nasty.

It was also the worst moment of the week, which means over all, I had a very good week. Lets face it, if all you can complain about is ten minutes of soggy socks, its a pretty good week.

The Stats:

Starting weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s weight: 215.2 lbs

This week’s weight: 214.6 lbs

Lost this week: 0.6 lbs

Lost this far: 31.4 lbs

So not the greatest loss on the books, but I feel good, and sometimes that is more important. Today i feel good in my skin and I am satisfied with what I’ve accomplished this week. What a wonderful start to a Friday. I hope yours is starting off just as fantastic.

yoga gear

The Daily: October 6th, 2021

This morning, I had a plan. The sky was overcast but not raining so I thought I might sneak in a walk before getting down to work. I dressed for my walk and by the time my sneakers were laced, it was raining.

So I went with You Tube Yoga instead.

I took my hair out of the ponytail and the band snagged in my hair. I decided that even if I hadn’t made it to the salon, my hair was getting cut. So I lopped about three inches of dead scraggly ends off of it. There is still plenty for a stylist to work with and I’ll get a professional to put in layers. I know my limits.

But my hair feels so much better. It also feels a lot shorter, even though it is still quite long. I actually feel really good about that. So unexpected personal project aside, I sat down to work and the phone rang. And kept ringing.

Issues were dealt with, I decided to put on my makeup and go for a rather simple look. I was just going to use a dash of blush or maybe bronzer on my lids so I could move quickly, but then I saw the liquid shadows and realized I hadn’t used them in a while. So I used them. And then I thought, I really need eyeliner. The first three eyeliners I tried were dried up and so I wound up with the fourth, which was also close to done but by that point so was I.

Makeup done, I finally got back to what I intended to do all along.

It has just been a day where nothing has really gone as expected. Its not a bad day, just a very unexpected one. I’m hoping things settle down a bit for the rest of the afternoon though. I have a quiche planned for dinner and then my babydoll are indulging in our own October Horror movie-a-thon. Paramount + just put a bunch of horror/thriller type things up and tonight we will be watching Gretel and Hansel. I know it has been out a while but we never got around to watching it. So tonight is the night. If all goes as planned.

Today’s Look:

Primer: Benefit Cosmetics Porefessional Primer

Foundation: NYX Bare With Me Tinted Skin Veil

Bronzer: Ciate London Bamboo Bronzer

Blush: bareMinerals Bounce and Blur Blush

Powder: Ciate London The Extraordinary setting powder

Eyeshadow: Too Faced Melted Chocolate and Stila Liquid Shadow in Charmed

Eyeliner: Eyeko Skinny liquid Liner in black

Mascara: Eyeko Black Magic Mascara

Lips: Elf Sheer Slick in Black Cherry

I really did just want something quick and light and if I hadn’t gotten distracted by the liquid shadows then I wouldn’t have been tempted towards the eyeliner. It was really the eyeliner that slowed me down today. I haven’t worn eyeliner in a really long time and didn’t realize how many of my liquid liners dried out. I think tonight I may sit down and just test the open ones on my hand to clear out the ones that are no longer good so that if I want to grab something quick I can be reasonably sure that it will work.

Most of the products are on my list of favorites. The bareMinerals blush topping the list of today’s products. It really is one of my favorite formulas.

Today was mostly about the liquid shadows though. I really do like both of them. Stila and Too Faced and I should reach for them more. I love that the too faced is a matte product. I applied it and used my fingers to move it around, which is why it is a bit messy. I need practice with it. Once dry it stays in place though and other products are easy to lay over it. It is a very impressive formulas actually.

Over all, despite the dried liners, in the end things worked out well. It just seems to be a day where any actual plans go out of the window. But I took care of several calls I did need to deal with, I got rid of the scraggly ends of my hair and over all, it has been a pretty good day, even if I didn’t get a walk in. And it is a good reminder. Sometimes unexpected doesn’t mean bad, it just means unexpected.

The Daily: October 5th, 2021

Have you ever had a day where you just sort of fell into your work and time just slipped past without you noticing? That has sort of been today. This morning I nipped out on a walk before the rains came. The park had only small sections where there were deep puddles but otherwise it was clear. I’m pretty sure that is no longer the case.

As I was heading back the skies opened up and I squelched the last half mile. The last low spot I went through soaked my sneakers through and I’m pretty sure is now deep enough to not be passable. So I did get a walk in. I just got soaked in the process.

Then I dried off, changed clothes and jumped into what i was writing. And that has been my day. There was no makeup, no real e-mail and I kind of forgot lunch as well. But the story I’m working on, is fantastic.

The problem is now that I’ve taken a moment to step back and think, I am feeling the missing lunch. I can actually see the box from Tokyo Treat and all of the goodies it contains. I was planning on snacking on one of the items in it today, but I know that there will be no minor snacking. If i open one thing I will just plow through several items. So I am putting it away and going for a bunch of grapes. I figure the act of pulling them off the stem and eating them one by one will make me feel like I am eating many items (hence the reason I didn’t go for the satsuma). Its like the fruit equivalent of potato chips.

I know that sounds a little strange but that is one of the best dieting tips I know. It is definitely better not to skip meals but sometimes life gets away from you. Then it is better to stop and have a snack that feels like much more than what it is and that you can control. A box of tasty treats will just tempt me into trying multiple items. A bunch of grapes feels like a lot of items but doesn’t promote a massive caloric intake. Sometimes management is your best option.

So I am not going to be upset about missing lunch and instead celebrate what I did get done today. I am however going to manage my calories so that I don’t react to dinner like a plague of locusts. Luckily tonight we are doing our own baked potato bar so it is much easier to control. It isn’t a meal where I planned for left over portions to be used later, so that kind of saves me a well.

So no makeup today, just a bit of dieting advice for when you find your day sliding a little off of your planned path. And with that I will leave you with a list of several Elemis sales that you might want to take advantage of. Personally I love Elemis products. I really love Elemis products when I can get them at a discounted price.

And with that I leave you in the hopes that I can fall back into my story and get a few thousand more words down before the day is done.

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The Daily: October 4th, 2021

Oh Monday Monday, so rainy and so surprisingly warm. At this time of year that feels so strange. It feels like each rain storm that passes through should knock off a couple of degrees from the total instead of adding a layer of swampiness to the air. So strange.

Admittedly it did make me feel better about spending the extra time walking last week. That was nice. I felt a little vindicated for ducking out of the office to spend time in the sun. And now that it is rainy I get to catch up, because I certainly am not walking today. The park is flooded and the air is something that you can take a bite of.

So it is me and a you tube workout this afternoon.

Plus a lot of paperwork i put off last week.

I’m also starting to think about some of my subscriptions. To be honest I thought I had it figured out. I was pretty sure I knew what I was going to do in the upcoming year and which subscriptions I was going to drop. Then BoxyCharm sent and e-mail stating that the premium category was going to have a price increase in November. Instead of $35 per month it will now be $39.99. The other categories are staying the same. At the moment I am on the fence. I could say that the Premium category was worth $35 and I have been enjoying it, however I am not sure that it is worth keeping for $40. The new pricing goes into effect in November and I think I will be keeping the subscription through the end of the year unless something happens, but I will be watching the next two months to see if the price increase is worth it to me. $40 is edging into quarterly box territory and I am beginning to wonder if maybe a quarterly box like Fab Fit Fun might not be an interesting change.

Admittedly it might just be an interesting change while I whittle down my skincare stockpile. In generally I am thinking about adjusting some of my subscriptions so it isn’t just Makeup and skincare coming in, mostly because it has been so skincare heavy for a while and I really need to use up some of my skincare. Just some things I’ve been thinking about as I plan for the upcoming year. Thinking about Boxycharm has lead me to use the Hello Charmer eyeshadow palette today.

Today’s look:

Primer: Tatcha Silk Canvas Primer

Foundation: Tom Ford Traceless Soft Matte Foundation

Bronzer: Trestique Vegan Bronzing Stick

Blush: Colour Veil Gel Blusher from Illamasqua

Highlight: Milk and Honey Palette from Beauty Bakerie

Powder: Ciate London The Extraordinary Powder

Eyeshadow: Hello Charmer Eyeshadow Palette from BoxyCharm

Mascara: Eyeko Black Magic Mascara

Lips: bareMinerals Mineralist Lipstick in Perception

Brows: Brow Bar by Reema Brow Kit

Setting Spray: Laura Geller Spackle Mist Restore

I’ll be honest, today was mostly about testing out the gel blusher and the highlighter palette with an actual foundation instead of a BB cream. Last week I used both the Milk and Honey Palette and the Illamasqua gel blusher with a bb cream and they performed well. They were both able to blend down and work as a sort of natural look with the BB cream I was using.

But while I love knowing I have products that work with BB creams for a natural look, I didn’t know how they’d perform with an actual foundation, would they be too subtle to work out? The Colour Veil came through like a champ. I really like the way it looks with the foundation. It is able to blend in and add the touch of color without either standing out like a clown or disappearing completely.

The Milk and Honey Palette I am not so big a fan of. There are four shades and I’ll rotate through them, but the one I used today, the golden shade Queen Bee’ing, lost it’s color as it blended and just left glittery specs behind. I’m not really feeling it. I’ll keep playing but this isn’t turning out to be my favorite set of highlighters.

I do love the lipstick though. The color makes me feel fall and the bareMineralist lipstick formula is nice. As it is a bullet style lipstick it doesn’t dry down all the way so there are some lip prints at first. If you wait about 20 minutes, it is dried down enough that there are only hazy lip prints, and with a color this deep that is kind of impressive. As a lipstick it does loose color over the day, but it is still there at the end of the day. (Admittedly the greasier your lunch is the faster it will disappear. The grease just seems to break it down a bit more.) And even if the color fades at the end of an eight hour day, my lips feel nourished instead of dried out. So I am a fan. But then all of the products I’ve tried from the Mineralist line have been pretty spectacular.

But now me and my spectacular lips need to get back to work. All the things I put off to enjoy the sun yesterday have returned to my desk. And they brought friends. I still regret nothing. even if I will have to work a little later tonight.

Weekly Weight: 213.4 lbs

The Scale: October 1, 2021

Oh my darlings I feel good this morning. The scale is once again on the move and it has dropped. I know, it isn’t too much of a shocker as I saw the excellent weather and spent as much time walking around in it this week as I could.

It through my schedule off something fierce and I will probably have to do a bit of work this weekend to make up for it, but i can’t feel bad. The weather was nice enough that exercising just felt like being out and about enjoying myself rather than something I was forced to do to keep up with my calories in calories out ratio.

Which quite frankly is the perfect way for me to exercise. Doing things I love and enjoying them. Its been a while. With the heat and humidity walking outside has been a bit of a chore this summer. It has also required creative scheduling to avoid giving myself heat stroke.

And even for the short time where going to the gym was fine around here, it still stressed me out more than I think I realized at the time. I try to keep a basic work out diary to jot down a few thoughts about what I’m doing, why I’m doing it and how I feel about the whole thing. I keep it partially as a record but mostly because while I love seeing the numbers on the scale go down, my weight loss is about how I feel in my own skin so I like to kind of check in on that. Flipping through my notes, nearly all of my gym visits in the safe time of gym usage all contain some element of people monitoring.

Even when I felt good about the effort I was putting in and the results on the scale there was a low grade stress, first as the understandable after effects of quarantine and worsening as Delta took hold.

So it is really nice now that I can really enjoy the time spent walking outside. I think me taking advantage of the good weather will last until there is no more good weather. Hopefully it will continue to show results, and keep me happy.

To the Stats!

Starting Weight: 246.0 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 215.2 lbs

This week’s Weight: 213.4 lbs

Lost this week: 1.8 lbs

Lost over all: 32.6 lbs

So slowly we move forward. And as there is enjoyment in the moving, I really have nothing to complain about. Aren’t those the best days?


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The Daily: September 30th, 2021

I have to admit, the weather is just about perfect today. Staying inside is really hard to do so I’ve done very little of it. I woke up this morning and had my coffee on the back porch. It was nice being able to sit down with a hot beverage and not sweat profusely while trying to drink it. while our back porch can be used pretty much from now until spring (with maybe a few weeks mid-winter where it is too cold) In the summer time it is not a space where anyone wants to linger. It is positioned so that for most of the day the sun falls directly onto it. While it does make it usable throughout much of the year because it traps the heat, in the summer it just makes you feel like you are an ant and there is a very naughty little boy with a giant magnifying glass over you. The afternoons are still too warm to spend much time out there, but the mornings are fantastic.

Then of course there was a much longer walk than usual, and yes there will be another much longer walk than usual later this afternoon. It is just too nice to be inside. Plus after the rainy no walk days it is nice to get in a little more exercise. Hopefully the extra walking will show up on the scale tomorrow.

Today’s Look:

Primer: Urban Decay Optical Illusion Primer

Foundation: IPKN Moist and Firm BB Cream

Bronzer: Too Faced Chocolate Soleil

Blush: Illamasqua Colour Veil Gel Blusher

Highlighter: Jecca Blac Glow Drops

Powder: Ciate London Extraordinary Setting Powder

Eyeshadow: I heart Revolution Maple Glazed Palette

Mascara: The Feathers by Pretty Vulgar

Lips: Zoeva Powerful lip twist in Rhea and Milk Makeup Glow oil Lip and Cheek tint in Astro

Setting Spray: Benefit Cosmetics The Porefessional Super Setter.

Today I went for a more neutral look. I used the last of the IPKN Sample. While I will be looking for other IPKN products in the future, this BB cream had a little too much moisture for my skin so I won’t be picking up the full size.

The Primer is an Urban Decay Primer that has been discontinued so I am trying to use it up and clear it out. While I won’t be using it exclusively, I will be rotating it in frequently so I can use the last of it. I love it so it isn’t a hardship, but it is discontinued so this is a long goodbye.

The Too Faced bronzer is always a good product to use. I actually chose it today because it is very pigmented and I wanted to test it with the Colour Veil. Because I’ve been testing out a BB cream,. I went light on the bronzer and I wanted to see how the gel blush worked with a darker bronze. I still had to go in lightly with the bronzer because it is still a BB cream underneath, but I really liked the way the gel blusher is performing.

The Jecca Blac Glow drops is one of those products I tend to forget I have but then get really excited when I pull it out of the drawer and try it again. I know it can be used as an illumination over all the skin and it does look really lovely under a full coverage matte foundation, but I don’t often wear full coverage foundations so I really like using this as a highlighter. It can make full coverage look a little less mask like though, which I like.

If you saw my review of the IPKN BB cream then you know a powder is essential to tamp down the shin from the moist side of the Moist and firm BB cream. The Ciate London extraordinary powder works well for that. It’s one downfall is that there can be a little white cast if you use flash photography. I don’t use a flash so I don’t worry about it and just enjoy the powder. This container is a little less than half full at this point so I may work on trying to use it up. I have a lot of own powders at this point and rotating through them just means they all seem to last forever. And I think it is time to work on clearing a few out.

I love my little doughnut shaped palette. It is just such a good little palette. The dark brown can apply patchy at first but it blends easily and the patchiness is easily over come. I don’t use a lid primer with it as it tends to just make the patchiness worse. It is not a powdery formula and tends to last the work day. They fade towards the end of the day, but they will generally get you through the work day.

For the lips I went with a combination of the Zoeva and Milk products. As long as I don’t sharpen the Zoeva lip crayon it is fine. The formula is too soft to hold any sort of point. It is also too neutral for me to wear a lone so I layered the milk Glow oil over it to give it a little more color. I rather like the effect.

And then I set the whole thing with a layer of the super fine mist of the Porefessional supper setter. I absolutely love the fine mist and never have to worry about it going splotchy. I do have to stand the bottle up though as it tends to leak around the edges of the bottle.

And that was today’s look. It is neutral enough that it suits the office and now that the heat isn’t as melty, i can actually wear it out and about when I leave the house. And I am definitely leaving the house again today. I have just a little more work to catch up on before I slip outside. I know this evening I may have to work a little later to catch up, but it is so worth it. Besides we really only get a few weeks of really nice fall weather before it is gone. As fabulous as it is Autumn is fleeting. So I feel it is best to make the most of it while it is here. Plus the simple relief from the heat is cause for celebration all on it’s own. So back to work for me and then, I’m making my great escape.