Weekly Weight: 216.4 lbs

The Scale: October 23rd, 2020

Okay I am calm and relaxed. I know I was a bit of a mess yesterday. And as I suspected, I was a bit of a mess all the way upto the time the car pulled into the driveway. Then I was calm and relaxed. The visit was short and fun. I enjoyed myself immensely.

And once it was over I sort of collapsed.

Yeah, I wore myself out. And I apologize for the super stressed out daily post from yesterday. That was just the first time anyone who doesn’t live under my roof has been closer than my mailbox since March. It was surprisingly nerve wracking.

But it is done and we are moving on. With the exception of yesterday’s pound cake I did pretty good this week in following my diet and exercise routine. As my plan had to adapt mid week, I am pleased to see my efforts pay off. At the moment the place where I can see my efforts the most is in the bottom of my sneakers. I have some worn patches on them that let me know, I really need to replace them soon. Luckily I have their replacements ready and waiting.

So to the stats we go.

Starting Weight: 246 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 217.6 lbs

This week’s weight: 216.4 lbs

Lost this week: 1.2 lbs

Lost over all: 29.6 lbs.

So this week was more stressful than it had to be, but I still managed to get the scale to go down a little. My slow and steady progress is still slow and steady. Sometimes frustratingly slow. But that is just my instant gratification button wanting to be pushed. I’ll live if it isn’t. And in fact I’ll be better if it isn’t. Rapid weight loss makes me think that something wrong has occurred. I just need to temper my own impatience. And be happy about losing over a pound this week. As stress usually causes me to gain weight, that is minor miracle. And yes part of the impatience is due to yesterday’s visit and photos shared. But comparing myself to others won’t get me anywhere in the weight loss game. It just makes me feel impatient with my own body and that is never a good start. So I am shoving away my impatience and celebrating my 1.2 lbs loss this week with an extra walk through the park. I’m also going to spend the weekend immersed in Vincent Price horror movies which will not only kick of our in house week before Halloween fright fest, but it will switch the mental gears from comparing myself to others to wondering what you actually say to a contractor when you want to build a pit of acid in your basement. seriously, how do you commission that? Not that I intend to install one. Or even have a basement. But I have always been curious.

So 1.2 lbs gone (woo Hoo!), celebratory walk on tap and a weekend filled with old school horror. That’s me sorted. Hope you are up for your weekend.

The Daily: October 20th, 2020

At the moment my darlings I am feeling quite proud of myself. While procrastination is something I am very much prone to, this time not procrastinating actually helped me out. On Friday I did my voting early figuring the lines were going to be bad no matter when I went so I might as well get it over with.

And the lines were long.

And it took more time than I wanted to spend in line.

But i did it.

Today, my babydoll took some time off work to go and vote since the early voting is still open (its a two week window here in case you were wondering.)

The lines were long.

In fact longer.

It took him twice as long to vote today as it did for me to vote on Friday.

So even though I skipped my Friday Face mask I am so pleased that I ended up going as early as i could.

Beyond feeling tickled pink with myself for not procrastinating, did manage to get a walk in. Apparently my pleasure at voting early caused the sky to rain on my parade, literally.

well literal rain. Not literal parade. I think even my neighbors might take issue if I marched along with a band leaders baton down the walking trail. Of course as long as i didn’t have the band and the elephants following me, they might not, who knows.

The air felt humid but didn’t look like it was going to rain, so i went on my walk. I reached the furthest point of my walk, turned around to head back and that’s when the skies opened up. Rain ga-loushed (and yes I said Ga-loushed. Take that spell check.) out of the sky in buckets. And it lasted until I was about forty feet from my house. Then it tapered off. When I put my hand on my front door to open it, the rain came to a stop and the sun peeked back out.

I know it’s just the weather, but it’s hard not to take that personally.

Luckily my baby doll finished voting by then and so I was the only one soaked. The whole voting thing sort of stressed him (the line was not terribly well managed and I think he was worried he wouldn’t make it in to vote on time and have to go through the whole thing again) out, so I’m making him consolation deviled eggs.

I know he likes deviled eggs, but I really think he likes when they are put on the old cut glass egg platter. Whenever he has felt stressed, he likes when he gets something fancy to make up for it. And to his credit as soon as I told him I would make the eggs for him, he got the platter out of the back of the cabinet and washed it. It was my grandmothers and we only use it once every couple of years at best. I think he just didn’t want to risk me just putting them on a plate. So dinner tonight is a large spinach salad with a side of deviled eggs, on a fancy cut glass platter. Luckily, most of the eggs will be going towards someone else’s belly.


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The Daily: October 19th, 2020

Today was one of those beautiful fall days. Sun shining, air slightly crisp but not cold, humidity low. Everyone and their dog was at the walking trail today. Especially if they had dogs. I have to admit, I felt a little bad for the dogs.

The weather was fine enough to bring out a bunch of disc golfers to the course that criss crosses the walking trail. Discs were flying through the air and you could see the eyes of every single dog follow their arcs.

The words “Not your Frisbee,” came out of nearly every dog owners mouth more times than I could count. When one disc landed in the creek that runs parallel to the trail one lovely Newfoundland (maybe a year or two old at best) decided he just couldn’t take it any more. There was a cry of “Bernie, No” as a large black mound of fur sprinted past me and took a gleeful, flying leap into the water.

I was luckily out of the splash zone. The disc golfers were happy to have him retrieve it. Less happy when he returned to shore and they realized Bernie had no intention of giving it back. I walked on as Bernie created mayhem.

I have no idea who won, but I seriously hope it is Bernie.

So I got my walk in, plus a pretty good laugh. Overall, not too bad for a Monday.

Weekly Weight: 217.6 lbs

The Scale October 16th, 2020

Not as large a drop as last week, but I am all for slow and steady progress. It chafes because I want instant results, but it is something I can maintain. Plus, I probably wouldn’t trust instant results.

And I feel pretty good this week, healthwise.

Some residual stuffiness due to weather changes, but as the changing weather took down the ragweed my eyes are feeling the relief even if my nose has yet to reap the benefits. while this happens every year, this year it is kind of interesting. One sniffle and everyone around you suddenly looks at you as though you are Typhoid Mary.

It has been interesting. First off you can automatically tell who has allergies of any sort because they just look at you and say, ragweed? And then you nod and everyone goes about their business. Because it’s kind of an issue where I live. Those with no allergies look momentarily concerned until area logic kicks in. The best reactions are from those people still running around without masks. They have a monetary flash of panic, despite the fact that I am wearing a mask.

It is amusing. A dark amusement, but an amusement nonetheless.

But soon enough the thermometer will stop yo-yoing and settle into autumn, with temps decreasing into winter. My nose will settle down, the sniffing will stop. Until spring of course when the seasons once again fight for dominance. Personally. I’m just glad autumn finally managed to get a few punches into summer. For a while it didn’t look like it was going to win the fight and have to just tag in Winter fo the KO.

Or at least that is how it seemed here.

But the end result is that (nose not withstanding) I feel good about what I did this week. My exercise was consistent, my calories were pretty much on point. My one indulgence this week was really the commiserating glass of Reisling to make me feel better about electronic malfunctions. I also felt better about getting it out of the fridge as it had been there longer than I felt comfortable leaving an open bottle of wine around. The last glass was still lovely, but you could sort of taste that it wasn’t going to remain lovely for very much longer. so at least it didn’t go to waste.

So, to the stats!

Starting Weight: 246 lbs

Last week’s weight: 218.2 lbs

This week’s weight: 217.6 lbs

This week’s loss: 0.6 lbs

Total loss thus far: 28.4 lbs

Like I said above, it wasn’t a huge loss, but it was a loss. And it is a loss I feel good about. I didn’t starve myself or massively over indulge. I dodged the rain to get my walks in, but got a walk in most days this week. It felt like a good week over all. Minus the electronic angst. That i could have lived without.

The Daily: October 15th, 2020

Today certainly started with the sizzle pop of excitement at my house. Mostly because my graphics card in my computer overheated and fried. which was all sorts of fun. But somehow it managed not to take anything else down with it. So only minor replacements were needed, no work was lost and fearing to leave my computer alone too long lest anything else happen, I got a lot of work done.

I remain hopeful that all issues are complete, I can replace what needs to be replaced quickly and all will be well. It does mean that tomorrow’s schedule is more variable than usual. I think things are steady but if tomorrow’s posts get delayed then you know I’m seeing the techno doc and will catch up later.

But that is a just in case issue. I’m about 90% sure all is steady now.

My break from my desk today netted me a walk and a much better chance to test my Native deodorant. Temps rose near me enough that I ended up very sweaty. Although I’m pretty sure it is more humidity rising than the heat. All of my shirt was wet, not just the underarms. It went directly to the washer. But I did a sniff test first.

There is a strange odor left behind on the shirt. It isn’t a sweat stink and it isn’t the cucumber mint, or any real combination of the two. It is an odd sour smell that I sort of remember from my Speak deodorant test. Although not nearly as bad. The last time I smelled this it was at the beginning of the first Natural deodorant trial and as near as I could figure out it was my body purging toxins. I can only guess that this is the same, but it isn’t nearly as strong as it was last time (which is nice) and I didn’t have the scent on light sweat days, just when I sweat buckets. Maybe I didn’t have as many toxins so they didn’t feel the need to flee my body in such large and immediate quantities.

Either way I put the shirt in the wash, took a shower and now smell delightfully of cucumbers and mint. Mostly mint to be honest, but it is a nice scent. It will be interesting to see how the grand toxin purge progresses. But for now I am pleased with the deodorant. and my on going trials. And I promise I will stop talking about my underarms until I make a final decision about how I feel about the product (in a few weeks), i just wanted to give a bit of an update since, I reported no initial odor. I didn’t want anyone to try it and be surprised.

So what it boils down to is I got my walk in and am monitoring my computer closely. I’ve also shifted a lot to the cloud and transferred reams of information to USB drives. You know just to be prepared.

Tonight is a crisp cool salad which will probably be accompanied by a nice glass of Riesling. I will sip and try not to think of french fried electro bits. And because there is only one glass left and the bottle has been in the fridge for a while. Fingers crossed it isn’t vinegar.

The Daily: October 14th, 2020

Today the sun was shining and over night the scavengers had time to clear out the unfortunate creekbed remains and the midge swarms are once again hiding in the shadows. So I was able to take my walk with out feeling like i was walking through a fishmongers after an extended power outage.

Deep breaths my darlings!

Inhale the actual air from the world outside.

And revel in the fact that the ragweed was smacked by the cold snap last night and making the eyes as happy as the lungs. That’s right, no itchy watery eyes for me today!

I see clearly, I breathe deeply and I crunched my way over the dried mud scales that currently coat the walking trail. While not the best of surfaces, the dried mud is not slick so no skidding down the hill for me today either.

It was quite pleasant, in fact it was so pleasant after I post this, I may go on a second afternoon stroll. more calories burned and more pressure put on the new deodorant i am trying out. If you recall from yesterday’s post, on a whim I picked up a new natural deodorant to try out. It is the Cucumber and Mint from Native.

After my first walk this morning I came in with still non-stinky armpits. However my skirt’s armpits were very very wet. I know it is a deodorant and not an antiperspirant but I was not expecting such damp cloth. I was wearing a black shirt so there were no noticeable pit stains. But the feel of the wet cloth was not my favorite.

I don’t mind sweating on my walk. Half the time everyone I pass is just as sweaty and messy as I am so that doesn’t bother me. The issue might be what happens when I test it out in a shirt sitting at my desk. I may have a lot of black clothing but not everything is dark and some clothes would definitely show stains. I think once I’ve determined that it doesn’t make me stinky when I’m working out, I will see about the non-work out results. There also may be an adjustment period as I just changed deodorants this past week.

But phase one, the not stinky in public phases is going well so far. If it remains so, I will move into Phase 2 testing. but for now I don’t stink. Having said that, I think i am going to take advantage of the very nice day outside and go for a walk. I may regret it when I have to play catch up tomorrow but my meetings are done for the day and quite frankly the sunshine and cooler temps are calling me to play. Resistance is futile.

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Weekly Weight: 218.2 lbs

The Scale, October 9th, 2020

I know I am running a little behind today, but this morning has been a little surreal. I got up and stripped down to step on the scale. I stepped on the scale, took the picture and wiggled in a little happy dance. I may not believe that the scale’s numbers are the end all be all of my life but it is nice to have some validation of my efforts.

However as I reached for my clothes and began to dress, still bobbing my head to an impromptu happy dance. To the tune of “two pounds gone, oh yeah, two pounds gone, the sweat was worth it.”

Okay calling it a tune might be stretching the truth and possibly be an insult to music in general. But I was dancing to it nonetheless. When suddenly my bedroom was filled with flashing blue lights.

Sadly my first thought was “My dancing’s not that bad”.

I then realized I was still half naked and that if the police were indeed hunting me down for some unknown misdeed then I wanted to be fully clothed. So I finished dressing very quickly.

Turns out the police did not want to take me in for crimes against music. They were here for one of my neighbors. Incidentally the neighbor whose radio caused me to think i was going insane earlier in the week.

I have no idea what is up. In general I live in a pretty quiet neighborhood. Its one of those neighborhoods that is in the process of transitioning. We have a lot of folks who have lived here for fifty years and if they leave they are either going to an assisted living facility or the funeral home. Then we have a couple of young families with really little kids. Excitement in my neighborhood generally means an ambulance and the start of the house finding a new owner or my neighbor with dementia accusing one of the other neighbors of stealing her fudge pops.

For diabolical purposes I’m certain.

But I’m sure later I will find out what is going on with the neighbor and the police. with everyone working from home more (at least those that aren’t retired) gossip spreads along the walking trail even with everyone more than six feet away. which also means it is spread loudly to over come both distance and masks so you get to hear everything. I now know gossip about people I’ve never met. it’s kind of fun.

Anyway, that is for later. At the moment, I am happy my sweat paid off and my weight is going back down. Two pounds is a great loss for me this week and quite frankly provided me with the encouragement I needed to keep going. The weight gain from the month without a scale really got me down. this makes me want to continue. So to the new and improved stats!

Starting weight: 246 lbs

Last week’s Weight: 220.2 lbs

This week’s weight: 218.2 lbs

Lost this week: 2 lbs

Lost in total: 27.8 lbs

I am no longer putting a goal weight as I am just going to work at chipping away the excess until I feel healthy and am in a healthy weight range according to my doctor. I can use the scale as a tool without being ruled by it. And I can still enjoy the two lbs loss happy dance. It is not even illegal, as far as I know.

The Daily: October 8th, 2020

Sleep. Such a beautiful thing. And last night, I managed to find it. So too, apparently did my neighbor. Or if he didn’t then at least his late night driving around the neighborhood was sans radio.

It was bliss.

Actually I was tired enough that I woke up feeling like someone hit me with a brick in the middle of the night. I also woke up in the same position as when I went to sleep, which almost never happens. I think I just conked out.

But I felt a lot better. My walk today did not feel as though my feet were made of lead. Which I consider a bonus for my workouts.

Less appealing was the humidity. The temps may still be low but the humidity went sky high today so I was sweating buckets. I kept telling myself it was good for the skin and that sweating purges toxins. I think I might have tried telling myself I was getting that post exercise glow. That lie didn’t last as I looked in the mirror when I got back to the house. There was no post work out glow. I just looked like a drowned rat.

So I cooled off, took a shower and decided I earned the trip to the drug store to look for replacement e.l.f. foundations. It turned into a bit more of a saga than I anticipated. I struck out at three drug stores and ended up at Target. But I found one of the products I was looking for. I also found out the one I loved has been discontinued. This week I’ll have to see if the new one stacks up against the replacement. They aren’t the same. One was a tinted moisturizer and the other is an acne fighting foundation. The link will take you to it if you want specifics early. I’ll spend some time poking around on the elf site later and see if I missed anything. At the moment elf has free shipping with orders over $15 in case you are looking to shop. I have to say it was really hard not to pick up other products while I was at Target. It is one of my downfalls. I tend to pick up an item when I see it or need it and then when I go onto the site to take advantage of the sales I realize I have already picked up all I wanted. So I’m trying to control the impulse buying and the need for the immediate so that i can just add in my wishlist when I do bulk orders for the holidays. I already know I will be ordering at lest three of the Bite sized palettes this holiday season. Seriously, good eyeshadow for $3, can we say stocking stuffers for thirteen year olds? I think we can.

Its actually amazing. I started adding things up and then I had to call parents to double check my ages because I thought I might have gotten them wrong. There are a surprising number of twelve and thirteen year olds on my list this year. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised as everyone starting having kids at the same time. I just didn’t realize that we were entering the land of the teenager.

Fun stuff, and a not to bad day in total. I slept, I walked, I recorded my calories and I am maintaining the stance that I sweated out toxins. I don’t know what those toxins would be but I feel confident I sewated them out. I may not be able to convince myself of the post work out glow thanks to the mirror, but I am sticking with the toxin removal. It makes me feel better about the sweat fest. Now I am off to rehydrate and to finish out the last of my day. Tomorrow morning I am back on the scale and we will see if I managed to take a step forward.

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The Daily: October 5th, 2020

Good afternoon my darlings. I know I got my scale back but I kind of enjoy the afternoon waffle. So for now I am going to keep it up. Today, I feel really good about myself. I didn’t overindulge this weekend, which is always key. And I remembered to log in my calories.

On weekends especially I really forget to do that. It’s not like I don’t think calories count on the weekends (although really how awesome would that be?) I just tend to be away from my desk on the weekends and it doesn’t always occur to me to write them down when I am not at my desk for long stretches of time.

But if Friday’s weigh in taught me anything it was that I need to be more vigilant.

I suspect my vigilance will fade after the shock wears off (maybe two weeks) but hopefully by then I will be back on track. Friday I painted my nails for the first time in a few weeks and despite no garden work this weekend they already look beat down.

It’s this polish. I love the color. It is this reddish brown color that looks better in person than on camera. It has a slight sheen and sparkle to it without actually being glitter. I break it out every fall. And every fall I apply it, it looks fantastic on the day I apply it and then the next day it goes down hill fast. I either need to find a top coat that can seal it in or I need to find this color in a more reliable formula.

Every year I try it, and every year I am disappointed.

Seriously, I just painted them Friday afternoon

But seriously, I always get excited by the color. If anyone has any suggestions I’d love to hear them.

But as disappointing as the nails were (and most of them broke off this weekend to which was sad), I did find out something fabulous. Glossy Box had a sneak peek released.Well two actually. They are for the October box. The first item they had a sneak peek of was the Generation Skin Ultra Violet Purple Brightening mask. That’s right, one of my favorite masks is going to be in the October box. And Sneak peek number two? Translucent powder from Ciate London.

I know, it’s like they peeked into my empties bin and asked themselves, what is it Mimsy likes? So that was fun to find out. If you aren’t a member of Glossy Box, you can get a discount on your first box with the code BEAUTYTALES. With that you get your first box for $16. And it is going to be a good one this month. They also have a Rodial Limited Edition Box set to be available October 22nd so if you are a fan of the brand and interested, you can go to the Glossy site and get put on the notification list for that. I’ve tried a sheet mask from them which I liked, but I have to confess, I don’t actually know all that much about Rodial. Although I have to say the fact that it is the Dragon’s Blood collection does make me curious. I know, my fantasy roots are showing.

But I was super excited for the Generation Clay Mask. Now if only I could work out this nail polish issue. Do you think if I put it in the empties bin the powers that be will notice? Possibly not. I already got two items I used up and want to use again coming in a box this month and that may be the limit. Maybe I’ll just call that plan B and when I take my car for it’s weekly spin around town to make sure everything is still working I’ll stop in at the drug store and see what there seasonal selections look like. Surely someone has this color or something to help this color.

Weekly Weight: 220.2 lbs

Weigh in October 2, 2020

Yeah, I almost had a heart attack when i saw the numbers on the scale this morning. I knew my control slipped and that I greenlighted far more comfort foods in the past month than usual. I also let my portion control slip when I stopped logging my calories.

But what is done is done. I can’t wallow. Although I will admit to some very harsh words to myself this morning. Then I actually stopped and realized I wouldn’t actually say those things to anyone else and that I certainly didn’t need to hear them from myself.

So at least that is progress of a sort.

What matters now is not letting this setback become permanent. It happened and it is a good reminder of what happens when I stop paying attention, but it isn’t permanent. It is just my new starting point.

I won’t lie I thought I might gain a couple of pounds, but I didn’t expect this and I am somewhat disappointed in myself. However, I know I took a month off from the scale for a good reason. I also now know that I am still at a point where the scale is a tool I need to use to keep me on track. Clearly it helps me reinforce my good decisions and provides a marker for a course correction when I make bad ones. So this was what a month with no accountability got me.

I need the accountability of the weekly weigh in. And so it returns.

I’ll get over my disappointment in myself and keep moving forward. As a very good friend of mine once told me, ‘Failures are either lessons that propel you forward or weights that hold you back.’ The situation was completely different, but the theory remains the same. I’ve learned lessons, about both my weight and myself this month. I will let them guide me as I move on and not weld me into place.

Yeah I know. Sarcasm and mocking come naturally to me, positive thinking takes effort. And while I’ll never be the eternal optimist/cheerleader sort of person, in this instance it is important to set the disappointment to the side. In case you were wondering in high school my sports were Fencing and Debate. If I couldn’t skewer you with words, I went for the sword. Not a lot of cheerleaders for Fencing. Although I bet their cheers would just be simply awesome. I’m sure lunge and riposte would be just beat the word Defense hollow in cheer format.

But I suppose now I need to work on my riposte and be my own cheerleader. And at least trying to think up fencing and/or weight loss related cheers prevents me from wallowing. Humor may be a defense mechanism, but sometimes it keeps your brain from breaking. And I’d rather laugh than beat myself up for what is already done. So, as I move forward we have the new stats.

Starting Weight: 246 lbs

This week’s Weight: 220.2 lbs

I kept my original weight because it reminds me that I am not back to square one no matter how much it feels like it at this moment in time. I also am not adding my last weigh in because it is in the past and if I see it, I will dwell upon it and start to wallow. next week I will add the change in weight from this week’s record. (although the other weights are still posted so you can see them for yourself if you’d like). I am also leaving off the goal weight as I don’t want to fixate on a number and instead just focus on reaching a weight where I feel good and is within the range of healthy weight for my body type according to the doctor.

So the big scare first official weigh in back is complete. It was scary, but I get through it, and you can’t always walk away and hid from what scares you. Unless it is a knife wielding maniac. Then you should probably run and hide. And call the police. But scary things like facing the scale and weight gain. This is something I can do. A scary thing I can face. And if you are in the same boat, I know that you can do it too.